My life has not always been living in my purpose. In fact, at various points in my life, it was more like living in a dumpster fire. A fire I set, a fire I tended to and a fire that was extremely uncomfortable and not at all in alignment with my highest self or my purpose. Married and divorced three times. A (now proud) card carrying member on the road of recovery I walk. A survivor of sexual trauma as a child and professional re-traumatizer of that wounded inner child as a result of my coping mechanisms. I collected "things" and "experiences" as a way to numb out all the shit that was going bump in the night for me. Those things became so loud, I finally had no more *viable* or healthy options to continue that behavior. I needed to get to healing or get to dying...pretty much that simple (and that complex simultaneously).
Now, healing is not linear - at least I have never experienced healing in that way. I started *doing* yoga somewhere around 1995. In 2000 (ish), I went to school to become a Licensed Massage Therapist in WA State. That was the first time I remember being - what I refer to as - gutted open. See, our muscles hold memories - good and ugly. Once you start moving those...whelp - let's just say stuff comes up. In 2012, I embarked on my journey to learn how to *teach* yoga as opposed to just practicing it. Yup - another gutting. I cried pretty much every day of that month long immersion. See our energy bodies also carry memories and stories and narratives and a whole host of things of which we may not be consciously aware. I was moving my physical body and also shaking up my energy body a little also. I came out the other side of that and tried to step back into my "old" life and took another corporate job. When I was let go from that position (I mentioned dumpster fires, yeah?!?), I dove into my (then) purpose and opened a yoga studio. I was living my best life. Flash forward to 2016 ish - I am running my studio, I am engaged in my healing, I am walking my path - AND - I am feeling an increasing level of discomfort and discontent. I am setting dumpster fires left and right and I am baffled by myself and my actions. I mean, WTF?!?! I am a healer, I am a business owner, I am "in it" and I am - - - confused.
In walks Grandmother medicine - Grandmother Ayahuasca. I had never even HEARD of that medicine prior to then and I certainly did not know the powerful healing that she could help facilitate. I sat in my first ceremony and what I had previously thought of as being "gutted open" was fully and wholly redefined. Without going into the whole shenanigans of it all, I will say that I walked out of that ceremony with a knowing that I cannot un-know. I was super happy that I had all of my past experiences so that I could navigate the post-ceremony work that I have done as a way to BEcome the person I am today. Not to say that I haven't lit any dumpster fires since then...I mean, I am human after all.
Now, I find myself happier, more grounded, able to navigate the shit that life throws at me in a more peaceful way, and more "in charge" of myself and my life. Being in charge means ownership of where I am on my path and knowing I can change that as I desire. I am thriving and more comfortable in my skin than I have - well - ever been and I am so excited for all the many adventures yet to come to me in this life!
So, after trying to figure out how to marry all of these seemingly different parts of myself into something that is a benefit to those who wish to work with me while working on themselves, I have settled on my coaching and shamanic work offerings. I am a big fan of the mantra "make your mess your message" and as someone who knows how to make a helluva mess, I am also a fantastic lead in finding your own medicine inside of you to help clean up and love up those parts of you that made those messes in the first place.
There are SO many more blanks to fill in - - - there always are. I am sure there are blanks that I am not currently consciously aware of that will be danced with when the time comes. What I can say is that I will dance with those with as much grace as I have, with love, with compassion and with a knowing that all of my answers reside inside of me.
My passion is to help you find yours! Let's dance!
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